Trust- The Vanquished Warrior

'Relations are built on trust' a thought of gold, but somehow most difficult to practice. In the days where truth takes a backseat, blatant swindling forms an obvious trait, turning tables turns to an uncanny knack and people lose their morals at the drop of a hat! 

It is truly disheartening to watch as the curtains of mistrust close down upon us, wrecking the frail bonds between us. Be it among family, work, love or even on the street! People are suspicious of everything. I contemplated this midway in a rather accusatory conversation with my friend's mother who made me swear on almighty to answer her truthfully! Swearing? I wondered where did this abysmal practice even start! Its not like a secret vow 'scroll' is being prepared upstairs! Even more so, I bet God 'Face-palms' whenever he is mentioned in a so called covenant! So that brings me back to the major trust issues people have.. well, including myself! I used to believe in the policy 'Ignorance is bliss' but that flawed policy holds good only if stayed ignorant till death! Otherwise you just end up feeling stupid. Something even harder than trusting is regaining a lost trust, which might just take a lifetime! 

These banal failures of faith in people impel me to reckon it as a fallen soldier, who fights to prevail every time but falls back miserably. Makes me want to wish the world was filled with 'Honest Abes' and 'Gandhi jis' so that there was no room for suspicion and people like me don't have to mull over retard issues like this! Although in reality, this might be remotely possible if each one of us start being truthful, atleast little by little.. and perhaps we can make this a world a better place (not a line from a song!)

Creating the Pinnacle of My Life!

Its good to get back to writing from the brief hiatus I had taken.. called 'My job!'

At my training, we had a session called 'Pinnacle' which focused on personality development and building a clear vision of what one would want to achieve in life. A mere three day program can change one's personality and perspective towards life?! That intrigued me. The result truly amazed me! Mocking my uncertainty.. it revealed a whole new realm of possiblities with the power of striving and accomplishing every single one! At the end of the session each and every person was to make a vision for themselves, along with the the exact time they would achieve it. All of us, bustling with energy and optimism rushed to chalk our ideas. Mine went something like this.. I'm penning this down as a post, so that it stands as a testament to what I must achieve.

So here it goes, My five year plan!

1. Work for a year or two and get some hands on experience in the corporate world.

2. Pursue MBA from a reputed college in marketing and HR.

3. Get placed as an HR in a reputed company.

4. Meanwhile, get settled with the right one and start a family of my own.

5. Start a joint venture with friends of an animal shelter.

6. In every step of this vision, see to that my parents are happy and proud of me.

7. Most importantly, grow as a person in the aspects of religion and spirituality.

That's about it I guess, thanks to 'Pinnacle', a dream that seemed as an unlikely possibility.. now appears so vivid and distinguishable.

Homecoming

There are times when you are simply taken aback by someone very young to you. In my case, its my little sister, who left me spell bound by penning this beautiful poem. 

The lights flashing in your eyes,

The crowd encompassing you breathless,

The confusion and disarray of shielders and destroyers,

The sudden urge to break through the solid ground for you can find no way out,

Only abruptly it hits you,

You lost her,

In the affrighting muddiness,

And to substantiate that you are her solely way out,

You rush back,

To discover her in the arms of a saviour,

That indescribable moment when you construe her safe

And carry her home,

Assuring her,

That daddy will never once more let go. 

Au Revoir

A lesson well learnt in life,
is the purpose of one's existence.
Dreams, wealth, power and love..
a heady rat race that doesn't halt.
It holds no regard in the other realm,
a realm you chose to transcend to.
Bidding to us an abrupt adieu,
and to this abysmal conundrum around.
Leaving a gaping void in the hearts of many,
that no worldly joy can fill.
A bottomless cup with a deceiving brim;
made us believe, loved ones stay forever.
Well, you proved us wrong!
A harsh reality check, life's true value.
In every step of life, you will be missed.
A part of you, the lesson you taught;
shall remain as a constant beacon.
Of sheer innocence and purity of soul
and mostly the joy of being alive.
Until, like you, its our turn to transcend.
Au revoir my love, my friend, au revoir!

This is post dedicated to my best friend whose tragic demise, shook my very core and made me realize, how important it is to be alive and to be thankful for it!
You will always remain in my heart. May your soul rest in peace!

Dear Blogger!!

Dear Blogger,

Ok first of all, I'm extremely sorry for neglecting you for one whole week! I know you have been my savior during all those days of joblessness and loneliness.. my guardian angel during periods of acute boredom! Its just that I have been engrossed with my new job, a desk job it is, but without free access to sites that involve any kind of 'entertainment!' (losers) and so I sit there going about my mundane task of training, while my heart pins for penning random thoughts about work and people there. The only highlight of working I found, was to get free tea and coffee twice a day (I was hoping for some light snacks too but sigh!) The rest is as gloomy as it can get. Work, I guess, can demand a lot from one's life.. maybe I shall get the hang of it after a while and try balancing job and my interests! I'm hoping that time will come soon. Till then I might be a little absent minded with publishing my posts, although my train of thoughts will always be directed towards my next post. Writing is something I just cant part with, my solace and my true escape from monotonous humdrum of life! Although, not on the lines of great and likes of masses (people consider my writing as juvenile and lame) shoddy penmaship as I call it.. its still an obsession of mine. Till then be patient with me and I won't let you down!

XOXO
Neha :)